I Had a Dream...

I had a dream last night. It was about me getting real about myself. I also did some real thinking last night. I am finding that it's hard to start doing physical things...like climbing stairs, or a ladder, or worrying that I will break a chair...NOT things I want to spend my time thinking about.

So today is one of those days where I am READY to start my journey. I was thinking - if I start with baby steps...they might not seem so hard. Lately, all I have wanted to do is sleep. Maybe if I start by moving a bit more (ie. walking), that might help. I need to gain some energy.

Also, I was thinking if I stop being so tired all the time, it would give me time to get into the kitchen and prepare better meals. Like a morning yogurt with berries....sounds easy, but not so when you can't drag yourself out of bed in the morning with five minutes to spare.

Yes, I think it all starts with gaining some energy. Now, to develop a plan. After work I find it hard to get outside - partially because it's been so cold these days (windy!), but also because of the dark - I'm not one who feels comfortable walking alone in the dark. So, maybe I need to start with a small lunchtime walk. Sure, I'm afraid to sweat and then have to get back to work, but we'll see. There are small solutions for that problem, if it arises.

Hopefully I can get something started...I need some energy!